Message to Richa from her loving Brother Ashish

Dear Richa,

Just now about of 20^th October, I took a look at the calendar with lot of courage, the month of November.  And was seeing when is 13^th November, 14^th November.  So to my utter surprise and in-fact shock is that, 13^th November also this year coincides with Bhaiya dooj.  What kind of game are you playing or is God playing with us, especially between you and me, some equation is going on.  We have planned it all well, isn’t it?  let 13^th November be a day, which I can never forget.  And let Bhaiya dooj also fall on the same day.  Because this is your expression of love.  Because your brother, who you want to finally awaken and tell him, Bhaiya “Get up, its high time, you do Bhaiya dooj for your sister properly”. 

Anyway, my darling sister I will abide by your play and God’s play. 

Ashish Bagrodia(your loving, but broken hearted.  Missing you always )

2 october 2014 richa didi had dictated this for her mother shashi bagrodia

Mari maa humari guru

Log devi ki pooja karte hai aahvan karte hai staphna karte hai par humara sobhavya toh dekhiye ki humari maa ke roop mein saakashat devi ka hi aawahan hogaya. 66 yrs pehle devi ka sakshat rooop padhara. Jaise ki yeh humare liye hi aayi ho. Aur dekhiye iss baar kitna onvious sign hai ki navratri ka 9th day aur aapka janam ka shubh din ek hi din aaya hai.woh mata durga sarawasti aur laxmi ka hi toh swaroop hai. Mata durga ki shakti urja mata laxmi ki shree, komalta, saumyata aur maa saraswati ka gyan see sada hum sab ko poshit kiya hai. Maa aap ho toh hum sab poorna hai. Aapse hi janme hai aur aapse hi humara astitva hai. Aap se hi hum surakshit hai etc etc etc aap se hi humari hasti hai, aap se humara sukh hai, asp se humari shaanti hai, aapke hone se hum nishchint hai , aap se humara pragati ka maarg roshan hota hai, ek hridh ki hadi ki tarah hum sab ka sahara ho, bina kahe bina dekhe ek hridh ki hadi ki tarah hume she gives us endless support endless strength and the courage to walk straight in the right direction, unconditionally hi aapne hum sab ke baare mein soch kar diya hi diya hai. Sada apna kartavya nibhaya hai. Sach is kathan ka aaj hume poornata se aabhas hua hai ki bhagwan dharti  par swayam na ho aapke hi aashirwaad se hume mukti ki prapti hogi. - Richa

"Sach is kathan ka aaj hume poornata se aabhas hua hai ki bhagwan dharti  par swayam na ho aapke hi aashirwaad se hume mukti ki prapti hogi"

yeh aakhri line kitni sach ho gayee !

jab richa ki maa ne richa ko phone kiyea 13 november 2014 ki subah ko 

richa rone lagi 

uske baad richa ki physical condition aur bigad te gayee

saans lene mein takleef ho gayee 

aur bigadte bigadte richa mukt ho gayee

maa ka aashirwaad leke 

- Ashish

One of the favorite songs of richa didi

One raksha bandhan Richa didi room on 29 August

Dear richa
One raksha bandhan , first one , since you became so subtle that we only feel your presence but not get to see you , talk to you , etc
It feels like yesterday , the last raksha bandhan , you were not well , in that  nightie , with that shawl , sitting on the sofa on the other side , then I came over to your side , remember !
Oh Richa how many more raksha bandhans do I have to go through this way , me still in a body , you in your subtle form , how many more !
It's so difficult !
Can't you see !
What I am going through
Each day !
You know how tough it has been for me today , yesterday , I have been dreading this day since a month
Can't take it any more
Enough !
I cannot go on , and on , and on living like this
Do something !
Please !

Your desperate , miserable , helpless brother

Ashish

How much can one suffer

Richa
My small sister
Seeing this photo I just broke down
Why why why I wasn't there with you
Why
You suffered and suffered and suffered
And what was I doing ?
Where was I ?
Richa my sweet sweet sister why did you leave me
Was it because it was just impossible to live in this body
I heard you say " bhaiya I want to leave "
Was I hallucinating
Did you decide to leave once mummy told you " tum sharnagathi ho jaao "
You cried so much
All alone in the icu room
Just with nurses
Why wasn't I there with you
Why

Ashish bagrodia

Meri bandagi hai wo bandagi

Richa

Mera ik nazar tumhein dekhna
Baa khuda namaz se kam nahin

Tera pyaar hai bas meri zindagi

ab

The suffering of richa

​Last year 

One night on the 6th of September 2014 nupur came to my room at 1 am or 2 am

She said I must come immediately to 1402

Richa has severe pain

That's how it all started

We went by bus to the Bombay hospital

That was the second time Richa ever came in the bus with me

Nileshji was there too 

That's the time she was also having non stop coughing

It's September again

One year !

AB

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Richa ro rahi hai 

Dekhiye

Lekin October Mein woh badal gayee thi

Bhaut strong ho gayee thi

Uski Nazar , rishiji ke prati bhi badal gayee thi 

Ab

 

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Richa was admitted on 6th September night. I remember I was studying in Dharmishtha's  study room for an interview, when the nurse called me around 12. 

Richa was sitting on the bed moaning with pain...She was literally screaming...I was just patting her back ..Didi it will all be fine...

then when things started getting out of control sister and I called Dharmu....

We called Dr. Sheikh, he asked us to get some injection which is a strong pain killer. It wasnt at home, so More ji urgently sent someone to buy it,..It was almost 1am that time.

In the meanwhile everyone came to her room...You, Nani, Nanu, Dharmu, Nupur Didi...

She was literally screaming in pain..ki ab nahi ho raha sehan....

In that moment of helplessness I called Rishji....He was in Bangalore that time..I told him..you sit right now, send blessings for her..her pain is getting worse...Rishiji and Tanu Ma immediately sat for meditation...

In the meanwhile Mary sister came and gave her the injection..it was a temporary relief. You then said we need to take her to the hospital...

All of us..your staff, Devika, Marysister, Dharmu, Saumya Bhabhi and I got onto the bus to take her . We took the Eastern Freeway and reached the hospial around 3:30 am. We got her admitted ...Then you told me to stay back at the hospital with Nanu,,,,

I remember everything....Seems like just yesterday.

I slept off on the sofa that night...Mahavir bhaiya was also there. Next morning, I went home to freshen up and Bhabhi came.

She was so strong then also, I went back again to the hospital after bathing, on 7th afternoon. She was much better, she was eating food also...

We discussed all the work for Rishiji's schedule, she gave me a list of all the work that has to be completed. She was constantly telling me..".Neeche Khau gali hai, moori khayegi?".. and I was like...Didi, atleast for now dont think about feeding me....

I spent a lot of quality time with her....that day..She was constantly saying..Why do  u need to be in d hospital, go study...you have an interview..and my reply to her was..that you dont worry, I will take care of it. 

Finally she indeed called fo moori for me....as usual, she never stopped to pamper me...!!!!

That evening I clicked a few pictures of her, to write to Guruji, she wore a green nightie ( See pic attached). I clicked and wrote to Guruji....

Then that evening I also called Rishiji, that you have to come to meet her...Rishiji changed his schedule and booked his flight for  Tueday afternnon flight (9th September). Dharmu picked him from the airport and gave her a surprise at the hospital.  See her photo in Purple nightie...

She stood and stared at Rishiji for 5 min, She felt relieved to meet him..she cried...We all started crying....

And writing all this to you also, I again start crying......It feels like Yesterday...

I have been recounting those days, ki abhi ye hua tha,, abhi ye hua tha...every moment of it.... Seeing your email I thought I should share it with you.......

I miss her too Bhaiya. There was no one like her.

Shambhavi