Woh jab yaad aaye

Richa

7 October evening/night
I today really felt your physical absence
The song music session with your dr shaikh had a missing element
You were missing
Where were you
Something did not feel right
In spite of such good spirit in the participants
Yet the energy in the room had a sadness of its own
Your physical presence made all the difference
Now you understand
It's no longer the same
Dr shaikh sang two amazing songs
Probably one was a tribute to you or meant for me for you



Ashish bagrodia

Richa Nupur me all alone was in July 2014

That's the month when sameer got married
She tried her best to make it a celebration
Feast and fun
As usual I did not participate with my 100 %
She had bad health
Still she tried her best to make it " home alone the three siblings "
Ek hi daali ke phool , actually only one phool the other two are fools
I miss you so much
I wish you were in your body
I wish I could laugh with you
Make fun of someone
Go out with you
You were my smile my joy my hope my mother too
Raat din to kat jaate hain , umra kat ti nahi
Listen , you must wait and be ready to receive me , I want to go back to those days when we had so much fun together
Once we meet we will chat and chat and chat
I have a lot to talk to you
As soon as the lights go off I want to see you , ok
Promise me !

Your foolish brother

Ashish

Message to Richa from her loving Brother Ashish

Dear Richa,

Just now about of 20^th October, I took a look at the calendar with lot of courage, the month of November.  And was seeing when is 13^th November, 14^th November.  So to my utter surprise and in-fact shock is that, 13^th November also this year coincides with Bhaiya dooj.  What kind of game are you playing or is God playing with us, especially between you and me, some equation is going on.  We have planned it all well, isn’t it?  let 13^th November be a day, which I can never forget.  And let Bhaiya dooj also fall on the same day.  Because this is your expression of love.  Because your brother, who you want to finally awaken and tell him, Bhaiya “Get up, its high time, you do Bhaiya dooj for your sister properly”. 

Anyway, my darling sister I will abide by your play and God’s play. 

Ashish Bagrodia(your loving, but broken hearted.  Missing you always )

2 october 2014 richa didi had dictated this for her mother shashi bagrodia

Mari maa humari guru

Log devi ki pooja karte hai aahvan karte hai staphna karte hai par humara sobhavya toh dekhiye ki humari maa ke roop mein saakashat devi ka hi aawahan hogaya. 66 yrs pehle devi ka sakshat rooop padhara. Jaise ki yeh humare liye hi aayi ho. Aur dekhiye iss baar kitna onvious sign hai ki navratri ka 9th day aur aapka janam ka shubh din ek hi din aaya hai.woh mata durga sarawasti aur laxmi ka hi toh swaroop hai. Mata durga ki shakti urja mata laxmi ki shree, komalta, saumyata aur maa saraswati ka gyan see sada hum sab ko poshit kiya hai. Maa aap ho toh hum sab poorna hai. Aapse hi janme hai aur aapse hi humara astitva hai. Aap se hi hum surakshit hai etc etc etc aap se hi humari hasti hai, aap se humara sukh hai, asp se humari shaanti hai, aapke hone se hum nishchint hai , aap se humara pragati ka maarg roshan hota hai, ek hridh ki hadi ki tarah hum sab ka sahara ho, bina kahe bina dekhe ek hridh ki hadi ki tarah hume she gives us endless support endless strength and the courage to walk straight in the right direction, unconditionally hi aapne hum sab ke baare mein soch kar diya hi diya hai. Sada apna kartavya nibhaya hai. Sach is kathan ka aaj hume poornata se aabhas hua hai ki bhagwan dharti  par swayam na ho aapke hi aashirwaad se hume mukti ki prapti hogi. - Richa

"Sach is kathan ka aaj hume poornata se aabhas hua hai ki bhagwan dharti  par swayam na ho aapke hi aashirwaad se hume mukti ki prapti hogi"

yeh aakhri line kitni sach ho gayee !

jab richa ki maa ne richa ko phone kiyea 13 november 2014 ki subah ko 

richa rone lagi 

uske baad richa ki physical condition aur bigad te gayee

saans lene mein takleef ho gayee 

aur bigadte bigadte richa mukt ho gayee

maa ka aashirwaad leke 

- Ashish

One of the favorite songs of richa didi

One raksha bandhan Richa didi room on 29 August

Dear richa
One raksha bandhan , first one , since you became so subtle that we only feel your presence but not get to see you , talk to you , etc
It feels like yesterday , the last raksha bandhan , you were not well , in that  nightie , with that shawl , sitting on the sofa on the other side , then I came over to your side , remember !
Oh Richa how many more raksha bandhans do I have to go through this way , me still in a body , you in your subtle form , how many more !
It's so difficult !
Can't you see !
What I am going through
Each day !
You know how tough it has been for me today , yesterday , I have been dreading this day since a month
Can't take it any more
Enough !
I cannot go on , and on , and on living like this
Do something !
Please !

Your desperate , miserable , helpless brother

Ashish

How much can one suffer

Richa
My small sister
Seeing this photo I just broke down
Why why why I wasn't there with you
Why
You suffered and suffered and suffered
And what was I doing ?
Where was I ?
Richa my sweet sweet sister why did you leave me
Was it because it was just impossible to live in this body
I heard you say " bhaiya I want to leave "
Was I hallucinating
Did you decide to leave once mummy told you " tum sharnagathi ho jaao "
You cried so much
All alone in the icu room
Just with nurses
Why wasn't I there with you
Why

Ashish bagrodia