One of the favorite songs of richa didi

One raksha bandhan Richa didi room on 29 August

Dear richa
One raksha bandhan , first one , since you became so subtle that we only feel your presence but not get to see you , talk to you , etc
It feels like yesterday , the last raksha bandhan , you were not well , in that  nightie , with that shawl , sitting on the sofa on the other side , then I came over to your side , remember !
Oh Richa how many more raksha bandhans do I have to go through this way , me still in a body , you in your subtle form , how many more !
It's so difficult !
Can't you see !
What I am going through
Each day !
You know how tough it has been for me today , yesterday , I have been dreading this day since a month
Can't take it any more
Enough !
I cannot go on , and on , and on living like this
Do something !
Please !

Your desperate , miserable , helpless brother

Ashish

How much can one suffer

Richa
My small sister
Seeing this photo I just broke down
Why why why I wasn't there with you
Why
You suffered and suffered and suffered
And what was I doing ?
Where was I ?
Richa my sweet sweet sister why did you leave me
Was it because it was just impossible to live in this body
I heard you say " bhaiya I want to leave "
Was I hallucinating
Did you decide to leave once mummy told you " tum sharnagathi ho jaao "
You cried so much
All alone in the icu room
Just with nurses
Why wasn't I there with you
Why

Ashish bagrodia

Meri bandagi hai wo bandagi

Richa

Mera ik nazar tumhein dekhna
Baa khuda namaz se kam nahin

Tera pyaar hai bas meri zindagi

ab

The suffering of richa

​Last year 

One night on the 6th of September 2014 nupur came to my room at 1 am or 2 am

She said I must come immediately to 1402

Richa has severe pain

That's how it all started

We went by bus to the Bombay hospital

That was the second time Richa ever came in the bus with me

Nileshji was there too 

That's the time she was also having non stop coughing

It's September again

One year !

AB

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Richa ro rahi hai 

Dekhiye

Lekin October Mein woh badal gayee thi

Bhaut strong ho gayee thi

Uski Nazar , rishiji ke prati bhi badal gayee thi 

Ab

 

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Richa was admitted on 6th September night. I remember I was studying in Dharmishtha's  study room for an interview, when the nurse called me around 12. 

Richa was sitting on the bed moaning with pain...She was literally screaming...I was just patting her back ..Didi it will all be fine...

then when things started getting out of control sister and I called Dharmu....

We called Dr. Sheikh, he asked us to get some injection which is a strong pain killer. It wasnt at home, so More ji urgently sent someone to buy it,..It was almost 1am that time.

In the meanwhile everyone came to her room...You, Nani, Nanu, Dharmu, Nupur Didi...

She was literally screaming in pain..ki ab nahi ho raha sehan....

In that moment of helplessness I called Rishji....He was in Bangalore that time..I told him..you sit right now, send blessings for her..her pain is getting worse...Rishiji and Tanu Ma immediately sat for meditation...

In the meanwhile Mary sister came and gave her the injection..it was a temporary relief. You then said we need to take her to the hospital...

All of us..your staff, Devika, Marysister, Dharmu, Saumya Bhabhi and I got onto the bus to take her . We took the Eastern Freeway and reached the hospial around 3:30 am. We got her admitted ...Then you told me to stay back at the hospital with Nanu,,,,

I remember everything....Seems like just yesterday.

I slept off on the sofa that night...Mahavir bhaiya was also there. Next morning, I went home to freshen up and Bhabhi came.

She was so strong then also, I went back again to the hospital after bathing, on 7th afternoon. She was much better, she was eating food also...

We discussed all the work for Rishiji's schedule, she gave me a list of all the work that has to be completed. She was constantly telling me..".Neeche Khau gali hai, moori khayegi?".. and I was like...Didi, atleast for now dont think about feeding me....

I spent a lot of quality time with her....that day..She was constantly saying..Why do  u need to be in d hospital, go study...you have an interview..and my reply to her was..that you dont worry, I will take care of it. 

Finally she indeed called fo moori for me....as usual, she never stopped to pamper me...!!!!

That evening I clicked a few pictures of her, to write to Guruji, she wore a green nightie ( See pic attached). I clicked and wrote to Guruji....

Then that evening I also called Rishiji, that you have to come to meet her...Rishiji changed his schedule and booked his flight for  Tueday afternnon flight (9th September). Dharmu picked him from the airport and gave her a surprise at the hospital.  See her photo in Purple nightie...

She stood and stared at Rishiji for 5 min, She felt relieved to meet him..she cried...We all started crying....

And writing all this to you also, I again start crying......It feels like Yesterday...

I have been recounting those days, ki abhi ye hua tha,, abhi ye hua tha...every moment of it.... Seeing your email I thought I should share it with you.......

I miss her too Bhaiya. There was no one like her.

Shambhavi

Handwritten letter sent by Om Prakash Ji tailor from Rajasthan

ऊपर से मुझे देख रही हो, मुस्कुरा रही हो,.

प्रिय ऋचा,

ऊपर से मुझे देख रही हो, मुस्कुरा रही हो,.

इसी तरह मुझे देखती रहना और मुस्कराती रहना। कमाल की यह तस्वीर है मैं नीचे हु तुम ऊपर हो, मैं तुम्हारी तरफ ऊपर की तरफ देख रहा हु तुम नीचे की तरफ मेरी ओर देख रही हो और मुस्कुरा रही हो और मैं भी मुस्कुरा रहा हु.

यही होना चाहिए की तुम सदा मुझे देखती रहो और सदा इसी तरह मुस्कुराती रहना.

तुम्हारा भैया,

आशीष 

Richa photo Painting

 

Beeti Batein Yaad Aati Hai

Beeti Batein Yaad Aati Hai
Jab Akela Hota Hun Main
Boliti Hai Khamoshiyaan, Sabse Chupke Rota Hu Main
Ek Arsa Hua Muskuraye Huye
Aasoan Mein Dhali Daastaan

AB

Poetry written by Brahma Devi Aunty for Richa Didi

First janmashtmi without you has been celebrated

Dear richa 

First janmashtmi without you has been celebrated 

Mixed feelings 

Missed you 

Yet felt a divine presence throughout 

Mom ( as you call mummy ) did a great job 

So did your friends from aol

I asked pandit bhagwatiji to help as you wanted ( but I had refused ) 

Actually mom asked for him

Maybe I would have otherwise forgotten 

She doesn't forget anything ! 

Yesterday ( actually on the 5 th sept ) she told me about you having recited Sanskrit verses when you were 3 years old 

Can't believe it !

On stage 

At the bhartiya vidya bhavan ( I think that's what mom said )

Some big swamiji had come 

You were garlanded too 

Wow 

How many more janmashtmis , how many more without you in your " sthool shareer "

Can't bear it !

Though I know and feel you in your " sukshma " form but I miss that other richa too !

In fact too much ! 

Your brother 

Ab