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WhatsApp message from Dharmishtha Didi

WhatsApp message from Dharmishtha Didi

I miss her.  Every second. Every space of the house. 

In her bathroom also,  I wld stand in front of her.  Entertain her. Then wld pick her up.  The rod nani got put.  

Her bed wld never be so clean.  All her diaries and cds wld be there.  

I can never forget when she had her last bath.  She was so happy that she's bathing because it was after So long.  She was happy as a child. Who knew it wld be her last bath.  

She's there every second.  Anything I say or do or decide, masi hoti toh yeh karti.  I m living through her in sorts.

Just sharing 

Yday night I saw masi in my dream after long v long. 

It was important... We were just sitting in the balcony talking laughing.  She was putting cream on my hand. I used to love it. I used to go lie down and say cream lagao. 

Anyway what's important is... In the dream also I was so satisfied andar se... I dunno what's the right word... I was so fully content.. I was 100 % at peace, with her around.  I haven't felt so content,satisfied,  whatever the right word is,  in v long time ....

In her bathroom

Don't knw date

Before she was hospitalised

 She sat on stool and we bathed her.  She was happy as a kid

 It's not u haven't done anything for her.  She loved u probably more than me also

 I used to fight with her on that

Masi

She had put jiya dhadak dhadak jaaye as a caller tune for me specially. 

I tell u I miss her every second of my life. 

She was a part of every micro second. 

Dharmistha  

From bret carlson dated 30 march 2012

Karma yoga is laughable in your case because you can't dispense with the fucking business ledger regarding anything!

      If you want to behave like theshameless moron that you actuallyare with respect to the Hare Krishna - you should do so only after falling at Richa's feet and begging her apology at least one-thousand to ten-thousand times for your own suspicions about The Art of Living group being a cult, when you clearly know for a fact that the Hare Krishna are simply the worst religious fraudulent drug dealing;murdering; child abusing; women raping; man raping; arms stock piling cult in contemporary history! Ravi Shankar's group hasn't theslightest blemish by any comparison. So, go ahead! But if you do not beg for your sister's apology before hand, you'll doubtlessly burn in a karmic hell filled with the biggest hypocrites that this world has ever produced!

      You are just a fool!Prabhupada's inexcusable corruption of the Bhagavad-Gita is so literally fucked up that the government of Russia is trying to ban it as extremist literature:

Jai shreemannarayan 

Shreemathe ramanujaaye Nama

These are the 2 things which I am looking for

27^th June 2009

To,

Dr. Gurmit,

This is in reference to your email.

Thanks for such a comprehensive response.

First , 

 allthough the treatment for Autoimmune disease all over the world is same but we need to know whether there are alternative drugs which means ;

no doubt there is steroids then there is Cyclophospomide but within steroids, within the family of steroids which steroid should be taken, within the family Cyclophospomide (and related) which would be the right drug for her.

Also, if there are similar cases seen which have pancreas having been affected how have they dealt.

Don’t you agree that we need to at least find out how other patients have dealt with similar situations, have they changed to other steroids or an alternative to Cyclophospomide.

though  you have suggested that  the right treatment for her is the blockage of that nerve (or partial removal of the pancreas).

Although you feel that it is going to be a temporary solution but if it will help Richa to live a health life for even 5 years without pain so that she could eat all foods, I would prefer that and then we don’t mind facing the situation after 5 years and replacing the pancreas with a pancreas transplant or whatever has to happen let it happen.

My only point is that she should live as normal and as functional and as mobile as possible.

Even the alternative treatments to allopathy like homeopathy or ayurveda are not going to help her unless and until her pancreas are allowed to function which means I want the pancreas to secrete insulin as well as the enzymes and those should flow out from the pancreas so that her digestive system is as normal as possible.

If this requires a surgery I want that surgery to be done.

I am not at all agreeable to simply block the pain and allow panaceas to die.

I don’t mind if the pancreas are going to die a natural death but I want them to operate and function as normally as possible and I want the juices to flow so that ayurvedic medicines and homeopathic as well as foods which she eats are actually absorbed by the system normally.

If the pancreas do get spoilt later well it is going to be our luck which we are going to face with either a pancreas transplant or some other allopathic innovation which may happen after 5 years.

Autoimmune disease does not always become worse ,  there are cases where it becomes ok or reduces.

Therefore I am all for surgery of pancreas.  I am of the opinion that a minimally invasive surgery is required for Richa so that her pancrea duct which has become obstructed should be released and the pancreas should function.

Thereafter whatever the pancreas damage has to happen (if at all) let it happen.

At least for next few years she will be able to eat well and live well.

As far as taking Cyclophospomide or an alternative to it and the best suitable steroids, this opinion also we need to seek abroad.

Apart from this, we cannot say for sure that the pancreas will continue to get damaged, you never know that the disease may change its route or manifestation it may not really manifest at all or it may manifest in a more subdued way.  Therefore I feel –

a)    We need to check whether there are alternatives to the drugs which she is taking which maybe safer and more suitable keeping in view her condition.

b)   A minimally invasive surgery to allow the flow of the pancreatic juices which are being blocked.

These are the 2 things which I am looking for desperately and urgently whether in India or abroad.

With best wishes and warm regards,

Ashish.

I had this dream in june or july 2016 morning hours

Conversation between your goodself and Acharya Prithwiraj

Conversation between your goodself and Acharya Prithwiraj - 5.50 pm, 21st July 2014

this shows that Richa was fine enough to come to my room with this astrologer , 

on 21 july 2014

just ( less than ) 4 months before she left her body

Scanned pics from sukeshini

Scanned pics from sukeshini

It will be soon one year Richa , raksha bandhan time !

Dearest Richa
My sweet angel
How much I miss you
This photo always amazes me
Such a radiant smile
Such a sweet smile
Such grace
Such dignity
Even when so ill so weak !
Who who , can have this inner strength
Only a saint
Darling sister bless me so that I learn from you
I am waiting each day to meet you
Be with you forever
I know you are here only but I want to see you talk to you go out with you have fun with you make you laugh
Hear " bhaiya " , how I yearn to hear your sweet voice calling me !

Ashish bagrodia

Woh jab yaad aaye

Richa

7 October evening/night
I today really felt your physical absence
The song music session with your dr shaikh had a missing element
You were missing
Where were you
Something did not feel right
In spite of such good spirit in the participants
Yet the energy in the room had a sadness of its own
Your physical presence made all the difference
Now you understand
It's no longer the same
Dr shaikh sang two amazing songs
Probably one was a tribute to you or meant for me for you



Ashish bagrodia

Richa Nupur me all alone was in July 2014

That's the month when sameer got married
She tried her best to make it a celebration
Feast and fun
As usual I did not participate with my 100 %
She had bad health
Still she tried her best to make it " home alone the three siblings "
Ek hi daali ke phool , actually only one phool the other two are fools
I miss you so much
I wish you were in your body
I wish I could laugh with you
Make fun of someone
Go out with you
You were my smile my joy my hope my mother too
Raat din to kat jaate hain , umra kat ti nahi
Listen , you must wait and be ready to receive me , I want to go back to those days when we had so much fun together
Once we meet we will chat and chat and chat
I have a lot to talk to you
As soon as the lights go off I want to see you , ok
Promise me !

Your foolish brother

Ashish

Message to Richa from her loving Brother Ashish

Dear Richa,

Just now about of 20^th October, I took a look at the calendar with lot of courage, the month of November.  And was seeing when is 13^th November, 14^th November.  So to my utter surprise and in-fact shock is that, 13^th November also this year coincides with Bhaiya dooj.  What kind of game are you playing or is God playing with us, especially between you and me, some equation is going on.  We have planned it all well, isn’t it?  let 13^th November be a day, which I can never forget.  And let Bhaiya dooj also fall on the same day.  Because this is your expression of love.  Because your brother, who you want to finally awaken and tell him, Bhaiya “Get up, its high time, you do Bhaiya dooj for your sister properly”. 

Anyway, my darling sister I will abide by your play and God’s play. 

Ashish Bagrodia(your loving, but broken hearted.  Missing you always )

2 october 2014 richa didi had dictated this for her mother shashi bagrodia

Mari maa humari guru

Log devi ki pooja karte hai aahvan karte hai staphna karte hai par humara sobhavya toh dekhiye ki humari maa ke roop mein saakashat devi ka hi aawahan hogaya. 66 yrs pehle devi ka sakshat rooop padhara. Jaise ki yeh humare liye hi aayi ho. Aur dekhiye iss baar kitna onvious sign hai ki navratri ka 9th day aur aapka janam ka shubh din ek hi din aaya hai.woh mata durga sarawasti aur laxmi ka hi toh swaroop hai. Mata durga ki shakti urja mata laxmi ki shree, komalta, saumyata aur maa saraswati ka gyan see sada hum sab ko poshit kiya hai. Maa aap ho toh hum sab poorna hai. Aapse hi janme hai aur aapse hi humara astitva hai. Aap se hi hum surakshit hai etc etc etc aap se hi humari hasti hai, aap se humara sukh hai, asp se humari shaanti hai, aapke hone se hum nishchint hai , aap se humara pragati ka maarg roshan hota hai, ek hridh ki hadi ki tarah hum sab ka sahara ho, bina kahe bina dekhe ek hridh ki hadi ki tarah hume she gives us endless support endless strength and the courage to walk straight in the right direction, unconditionally hi aapne hum sab ke baare mein soch kar diya hi diya hai. Sada apna kartavya nibhaya hai. Sach is kathan ka aaj hume poornata se aabhas hua hai ki bhagwan dharti  par swayam na ho aapke hi aashirwaad se hume mukti ki prapti hogi. - Richa

"Sach is kathan ka aaj hume poornata se aabhas hua hai ki bhagwan dharti  par swayam na ho aapke hi aashirwaad se hume mukti ki prapti hogi"

yeh aakhri line kitni sach ho gayee !

jab richa ki maa ne richa ko phone kiyea 13 november 2014 ki subah ko 

richa rone lagi 

uske baad richa ki physical condition aur bigad te gayee

saans lene mein takleef ho gayee 

aur bigadte bigadte richa mukt ho gayee

maa ka aashirwaad leke 

- Ashish

One of the favorite songs of richa didi

One raksha bandhan Richa didi room on 29 August

Dear richa
One raksha bandhan , first one , since you became so subtle that we only feel your presence but not get to see you , talk to you , etc
It feels like yesterday , the last raksha bandhan , you were not well , in that  nightie , with that shawl , sitting on the sofa on the other side , then I came over to your side , remember !
Oh Richa how many more raksha bandhans do I have to go through this way , me still in a body , you in your subtle form , how many more !
It's so difficult !
Can't you see !
What I am going through
Each day !
You know how tough it has been for me today , yesterday , I have been dreading this day since a month
Can't take it any more
Enough !
I cannot go on , and on , and on living like this
Do something !
Please !

Your desperate , miserable , helpless brother

Ashish

How much can one suffer

Richa
My small sister
Seeing this photo I just broke down
Why why why I wasn't there with you
Why
You suffered and suffered and suffered
And what was I doing ?
Where was I ?
Richa my sweet sweet sister why did you leave me
Was it because it was just impossible to live in this body
I heard you say " bhaiya I want to leave "
Was I hallucinating
Did you decide to leave once mummy told you " tum sharnagathi ho jaao "
You cried so much
All alone in the icu room
Just with nurses
Why wasn't I there with you
Why

Ashish bagrodia

Meri bandagi hai wo bandagi

Richa

Mera ik nazar tumhein dekhna
Baa khuda namaz se kam nahin

Tera pyaar hai bas meri zindagi

ab

The suffering of richa

​Last year 

One night on the 6th of September 2014 nupur came to my room at 1 am or 2 am

She said I must come immediately to 1402

Richa has severe pain

That's how it all started

We went by bus to the Bombay hospital

That was the second time Richa ever came in the bus with me

Nileshji was there too 

That's the time she was also having non stop coughing

It's September again

One year !

AB

***

Richa ro rahi hai 

Dekhiye

Lekin October Mein woh badal gayee thi

Bhaut strong ho gayee thi

Uski Nazar , rishiji ke prati bhi badal gayee thi 

Ab

 

***

Richa was admitted on 6th September night. I remember I was studying in Dharmishtha's  study room for an interview, when the nurse called me around 12. 

Richa was sitting on the bed moaning with pain...She was literally screaming...I was just patting her back ..Didi it will all be fine...

then when things started getting out of control sister and I called Dharmu....

We called Dr. Sheikh, he asked us to get some injection which is a strong pain killer. It wasnt at home, so More ji urgently sent someone to buy it,..It was almost 1am that time.

In the meanwhile everyone came to her room...You, Nani, Nanu, Dharmu, Nupur Didi...

She was literally screaming in pain..ki ab nahi ho raha sehan....

In that moment of helplessness I called Rishji....He was in Bangalore that time..I told him..you sit right now, send blessings for her..her pain is getting worse...Rishiji and Tanu Ma immediately sat for meditation...

In the meanwhile Mary sister came and gave her the injection..it was a temporary relief. You then said we need to take her to the hospital...

All of us..your staff, Devika, Marysister, Dharmu, Saumya Bhabhi and I got onto the bus to take her . We took the Eastern Freeway and reached the hospial around 3:30 am. We got her admitted ...Then you told me to stay back at the hospital with Nanu,,,,

I remember everything....Seems like just yesterday.

I slept off on the sofa that night...Mahavir bhaiya was also there. Next morning, I went home to freshen up and Bhabhi came.

She was so strong then also, I went back again to the hospital after bathing, on 7th afternoon. She was much better, she was eating food also...

We discussed all the work for Rishiji's schedule, she gave me a list of all the work that has to be completed. She was constantly telling me..".Neeche Khau gali hai, moori khayegi?".. and I was like...Didi, atleast for now dont think about feeding me....

I spent a lot of quality time with her....that day..She was constantly saying..Why do  u need to be in d hospital, go study...you have an interview..and my reply to her was..that you dont worry, I will take care of it. 

Finally she indeed called fo moori for me....as usual, she never stopped to pamper me...!!!!

That evening I clicked a few pictures of her, to write to Guruji, she wore a green nightie ( See pic attached). I clicked and wrote to Guruji....

Then that evening I also called Rishiji, that you have to come to meet her...Rishiji changed his schedule and booked his flight for  Tueday afternnon flight (9th September). Dharmu picked him from the airport and gave her a surprise at the hospital.  See her photo in Purple nightie...

She stood and stared at Rishiji for 5 min, She felt relieved to meet him..she cried...We all started crying....

And writing all this to you also, I again start crying......It feels like Yesterday...

I have been recounting those days, ki abhi ye hua tha,, abhi ye hua tha...every moment of it.... Seeing your email I thought I should share it with you.......

I miss her too Bhaiya. There was no one like her.

Shambhavi

Handwritten letter sent by Om Prakash Ji tailor from Rajasthan

ऊपर से मुझे देख रही हो, मुस्कुरा रही हो,.

प्रिय ऋचा,

ऊपर से मुझे देख रही हो, मुस्कुरा रही हो,.

इसी तरह मुझे देखती रहना और मुस्कराती रहना। कमाल की यह तस्वीर है मैं नीचे हु तुम ऊपर हो, मैं तुम्हारी तरफ ऊपर की तरफ देख रहा हु तुम नीचे की तरफ मेरी ओर देख रही हो और मुस्कुरा रही हो और मैं भी मुस्कुरा रहा हु.

यही होना चाहिए की तुम सदा मुझे देखती रहो और सदा इसी तरह मुस्कुराती रहना.

तुम्हारा भैया,

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