Saturday 26 December 2015

Woh jab yaad aaye


Richa
7 October evening/night
I today really felt your physical absence
The song music session with your dr shaikh had a missing element
You were missing
Where were you
Something did not feel right
In spite of such good spirit in the participants
Yet the energy in the room had a sadness of its own
Your physical presence made all the difference
Now you understand
It's no longer the same
Dr shaikh sang two amazing songs
Probably one was a tribute to you or meant for me for you



Ashish bagrodia

Richa Nupur me all alone was in July 2014


That's the month when sameer got married
She tried her best to make it a celebration
Feast and fun
As usual I did not participate with my 100 %
She had bad health
Still she tried her best to make it " home alone the three siblings "
Ek hi daali ke phool , actually only one phool the other two are fools
I miss you so much
I wish you were in your body
I wish I could laugh with you
Make fun of someone
Go out with you
You were my smile my joy my hope my mother too
Raat din to kat jaate hain , umra kat ti nahi
Listen , you must wait and be ready to receive me , I want to go back to those days when we had so much fun together
Once we meet we will chat and chat and chat
I have a lot to talk to you
As soon as the lights go off I want to see you , ok
Promise me !

Your foolish brother

Ashish

Thursday 22 October 2015

Message to Richa from her loving Brother Ashish


Dear Richa,

Just now about of 20th October, I took a look at the calendar with lot of courage, the month of November.  And was seeing when is 13th November, 14th November.  So to my utter surprise and in-fact shock is that, 13th November also this year coincides with Bhaiya dooj.  What kind of game are you playing or is God playing with us, especially between you and me, some equation is going on.  We have planned it all well, isn’t it?  let 13th November be a day, which I can never forget.  And let Bhaiya dooj also fall on the same day.  Because this is your expression of love.  Because your brother, who you want to finally awaken and tell him, Bhaiya “Get up, its high time, you do Bhaiya dooj for your sister properly”. 

Anyway, my darling sister I will abide by your play and God’s play. 



Ashish Bagrodia(your loving, but broken hearted.  Missing you always )

Friday 2 October 2015

2 october 2014 richa didi had dictated this for her mother shashi bagrodia


Mari maa humari guru

Log devi ki pooja karte hai aahvan karte hai staphna karte hai par humara sobhavya toh dekhiye ki humari maa ke roop mein saakashat devi ka hi aawahan hogaya. 66 yrs pehle devi ka sakshat rooop padhara. Jaise ki yeh humare liye hi aayi ho. Aur dekhiye iss baar kitna onvious sign hai ki navratri ka 9th day aur aapka janam ka shubh din ek hi din aaya hai.woh mata durga sarawasti aur laxmi ka hi toh swaroop hai. Mata durga ki shakti urja mata laxmi ki shree, komalta, saumyata aur maa saraswati ka gyan see sada hum sab ko poshit kiya hai. Maa aap ho toh hum sab poorna hai. Aapse hi janme hai aur aapse hi humara astitva hai. Aap se hi hum surakshit hai etc etc etc aap se hi humari hasti hai, aap se humara sukh hai, asp se humari shaanti hai, aapke hone se hum nishchint hai , aap se humara pragati ka maarg roshan hota hai, ek hridh ki hadi ki tarah hum sab ka sahara ho, bina kahe bina dekhe ek hridh ki hadi ki tarah hume she gives us endless support endless strength and the courage to walk straight in the right direction, unconditionally hi aapne hum sab ke baare mein soch kar diya hi diya hai. Sada apna kartavya nibhaya hai. Sach is kathan ka aaj hume poornata se aabhas hua hai ki bhagwan dharti  par swayam na ho aapke hi aashirwaad se hume mukti ki prapti hogi. - Richa



"Sach is kathan ka aaj hume poornata se aabhas hua hai ki bhagwan dharti  par swayam na ho aapke hi aashirwaad se hume mukti ki prapti hogi"

yeh aakhri line kitni sach ho gayee !
jab richa ki maa ne richa ko phone kiyea 13 november 2014 ki subah ko 
richa rone lagi 
uske baad richa ki physical condition aur bigad te gayee
saans lene mein takleef ho gayee 
aur bigadte bigadte richa mukt ho gayee
maa ka aashirwaad leke 
- Ashish

Sunday 27 September 2015

One raksha bandhan Richa didi room on 29 August



Dear richa
One raksha bandhan , first one , since you became so subtle that we only feel your presence but not get to see you , talk to you , etc
It feels like yesterday , the last raksha bandhan , you were not well , in that  nightie , with that shawl , sitting on the sofa on the other side , then I came over to your side , remember !
Oh Richa how many more raksha bandhans do I have to go through this way , me still in a body , you in your subtle form , how many more !
It's so difficult !
Can't you see !
What I am going through
Each day !
You know how tough it has been for me today , yesterday , I have been dreading this day since a month
Can't take it any more
Enough !
I cannot go on , and on , and on living like this
Do something !
Please !

Your desperate , miserable , helpless brother

Ashish

Friday 18 September 2015

How much can one suffer


Richa
My small sister
Seeing this photo I just broke down
Why why why I wasn't there with you
Why
You suffered and suffered and suffered
And what was I doing ?
Where was I ?
Richa my sweet sweet sister why did you leave me
Was it because it was just impossible to live in this body
I heard you say " bhaiya I want to leave "
Was I hallucinating
Did you decide to leave once mummy told you " tum sharnagathi ho jaao "
You cried so much
All alone in the icu room
Just with nurses
Why wasn't I there with you
Why

Ashish bagrodia

Meri bandagi hai wo bandagi



Richa

Mera ik nazar tumhein dekhna
Baa khuda namaz se kam nahin

Tera pyaar hai bas meri zindagi

ab

Wednesday 16 September 2015

The suffering of richa


​Last year 
One night on the 6th of September 2014 nupur came to my room at 1 am or 2 am
She said I must come immediately to 1402
Richa has severe pain
That's how it all started
We went by bus to the Bombay hospital
That was the second time Richa ever came in the bus with me
Nileshji was there too 
That's the time she was also having non stop coughing
It's September again
One year !
AB
***
Richa ro rahi hai 
Dekhiye
Lekin October Mein woh badal gayee thi
Bhaut strong ho gayee thi
Uski Nazar , rishiji ke prati bhi badal gayee thi 
Ab
 
***
Richa was admitted on 6th September night. I remember I was studying in Dharmishtha's  study room for an interview, when the nurse called me around 12. 
Richa was sitting on the bed moaning with pain...She was literally screaming...I was just patting her back ..Didi it will all be fine...
then when things started getting out of control sister and I called Dharmu....
We called Dr. Sheikh, he asked us to get some injection which is a strong pain killer. It wasnt at home, so More ji urgently sent someone to buy it,..It was almost 1am that time.
In the meanwhile everyone came to her room...You, Nani, Nanu, Dharmu, Nupur Didi...
She was literally screaming in pain..ki ab nahi ho raha sehan....
In that moment of helplessness I called Rishji....He was in Bangalore that time..I told him..you sit right now, send blessings for her..her pain is getting worse...Rishiji and Tanu Ma immediately sat for meditation...
In the meanwhile Mary sister came and gave her the injection..it was a temporary relief. You then said we need to take her to the hospital...
All of us..your staff, Devika, Marysister, Dharmu, Saumya Bhabhi and I got onto the bus to take her . We took the Eastern Freeway and reached the hospial around 3:30 am. We got her admitted ...Then you told me to stay back at the hospital with Nanu,,,,
I remember everything....Seems like just yesterday.
I slept off on the sofa that night...Mahavir bhaiya was also there. Next morning, I went home to freshen up and Bhabhi came.
She was so strong then also, I went back again to the hospital after bathing, on 7th afternoon. She was much better, she was eating food also...
We discussed all the work for Rishiji's schedule, she gave me a list of all the work that has to be completed. She was constantly telling me..".Neeche Khau gali hai, moori khayegi?".. and I was like...Didi, atleast for now dont think about feeding me....
I spent a lot of quality time with her....that day..She was constantly saying..Why do  u need to be in d hospital, go study...you have an interview..and my reply to her was..that you dont worry, I will take care of it. 
Finally she indeed called fo moori for me....as usual, she never stopped to pamper me...!!!!
That evening I clicked a few pictures of her, to write to Guruji, she wore a green nightie ( See pic attached). I clicked and wrote to Guruji....
Then that evening I also called Rishiji, that you have to come to meet her...Rishiji changed his schedule and booked his flight for  Tueday afternnon flight (9th September). Dharmu picked him from the airport and gave her a surprise at the hospital.  See her photo in Purple nightie...
She stood and stared at Rishiji for 5 min, She felt relieved to meet him..she cried...We all started crying....
And writing all this to you also, I again start crying......It feels like Yesterday...
I have been recounting those days, ki abhi ye hua tha,, abhi ye hua tha...every moment of it.... Seeing your email I thought I should share it with you.......
I miss her too Bhaiya. There was no one like her.
Shambhavi

Thursday 10 September 2015

ऊपर से मुझे देख रही हो, मुस्कुरा रही हो,.


प्रिय ऋचा,
ऊपर से मुझे देख रही होमुस्कुरा रही हो,.
इसी तरह मुझे देखती रहना और मुस्कराती रहना। कमाल की यह तस्वीर है मैं नीचे हु तुम ऊपर होमैं तुम्हारी तरफ ऊपर की तरफ देख रहा हु तुम नीचे की तरफ मेरी ओर देख रही हो और मुस्कुरा रही हो और मैं भी मुस्कुरा रहा हु.
यही होना चाहिए की तुम सदा मुझे देखती रहो और सदा इसी तरह मुस्कुराती रहना.
तुम्हारा भैया,
आशीष 

Monday 7 September 2015

Sunday 6 September 2015

First janmashtmi without you has been celebrated

Dear richa 
First janmashtmi without you has been celebrated 
Mixed feelings 
Missed you 
Yet felt a divine presence throughout 
Mom ( as you call mummy ) did a great job 
So did your friends from aol
I asked pandit bhagwatiji to help as you wanted ( but I had refused ) 
Actually mom asked for him
Maybe I would have otherwise forgotten 
She doesn't forget anything ! 
Yesterday ( actually on the 5 th sept ) she told me about you having recited Sanskrit verses when you were 3 years old 
Can't believe it !
On stage 
At the bhartiya vidya bhavan ( I think that's what mom said )
Some big swamiji had come 
You were garlanded too 
Wow 
How many more janmashtmis , how many more without you in your " sthool shareer "
Can't bear it !
Though I know and feel you in your " sukshma " form but I miss that other richa too !
In fact too much ! 

Your brother 

Ab 

Wednesday 1 July 2015

An unusual experience

Ashish Bagrodia
I can’t resist myself mentioning this unusual occurrence that compelled me to believe in destiny designed by the divinity....I experienced this on 21st June, 2015 while talking to Margret Madam on phone at 2.30 pm who was at her parental home at Malad. This call was just to inquire when she would return that day and also to remind her to avoid Rahu Kaal that was falling between 4.30 pm to 6.00 pm... ... ..Richa, the beloved sister of mine haunts my mind now and then since the day she left this mortal world... She was associated with the Art of Living activities and had created a great team comprising of umpteen friends from the Art of Living arena. She had firm faith in her Guru, Sri Sri Ravi Shankar and fully dedicated her life to her guru ... She pursued me tirelessly to be the part of this spiritual system but I was reluctant owing to my commitment with my traditional spiritual faith that forbids to adopt other paths. ...But I do respect Sri Sri Ravi Shankar and his followers. I, undoubtedly, had been observing the love of these team members towards my sister and charismatic influence of the message of the unconditional love of their guru for last 10-12 years. .....Though I wanted to send this message to Margret Madam through someone but in a flicker of second I change my mind and instructed my attendant to arrange call with her...I talk to her on phone very rarely ....I, usually, do not talk to her on phone unless there is a need of some conference call with regards to some official matters...it was very strange coincidence that the moment I talked to her I overheard the name of sri sri Ravi Shankar coming from some ongoing TV channel’s program...Generally, I do not like watching TV programs and hearing the sound of TV... So, the moment I heard the sound of TV, I wanted Margret to lower the volume. But unknowingly I decided to ignore TV sound this time and wanted to finish conversation in one or two minutes. I was feeling very weak and low due to viral infection and flue.  I know viral attack disturb my mind and causes ‘Delirium’. Anyway...I talked her and overheard the name of Ravi Shankar from the TV. I bewildered ...I wondered a Christian family watching any program related to Sri Sri Ravi Shankar.! I paused and inquired about the program from her. She confirmed that it was NDTV news channel and the name of Ravi Shankar was the part of some news with regards to World Yoga Day. I could hear the voice of Sri Sri Ravi Shankar...Latter, I could experience the different sound from TV channel probably due to the the change of the channel....Was it really meant to something divine or mere a coincidence?  I have been experiencing similar incidences since last November 13 i.e. the day Richa occupied my brain and soul.
I am sure...she keeps on making me realized her presence in various ways.

Tuesday 30 June 2015

A handwritten letter by Shri Ajay Gupta

शारदा मौसी के पतिश्री अजय गुप्ता में एक अच्छे लेखक और कवि के गुण हैं..उन्होंने ऋचा के संबंध में अपने उद्गार बहुत ही साहित्यक अंदाज में व्यक्त किए हैं...
- Ajay Gupta (Husband of Sharda Mausi)

Our beloved Richa–‘A personality worth to be followed’
Richa is no more in this mortal world…this is, indeed, a mournful occurrence, but at the same time, it’s not a fact …she has now turned all-world-pervading… she is now ‘of the entire world’ i.e. beyond the limit of sensory world…away from the boundary of materialistic world…even far from extra-worldly wisdom…
She had the great hand of the most revered Sri Sri Ravi Shankar on her head…She dedicated her entire life spreading and materializing the great messages of Sir Sri Ravi Shankar. She adopted Narayan Seva. She took human body as transient and the soul eternal. That was the reason that the deteriorating health of her could never become a hurdle in the path she was moving on.
She superseded older people in wisdom and understanding. She explored the light of true knowledge from the darkness of ignorance…she found the meaning from the meaningless….she never gave up smiling in pain…she wiped tears from the eyes of those who were underprivileged and poverty stricken.  
Richa, indeed, was a virtuous person. The birth of her in our family is a matter of glory. The need of such virtuous soul is felt not only in this world but also in the paradise.   That was reason she left the world so early.
May she rest in peace and reach to the stage of Moksha as she deserves this.
The Saint Kabir has described rightly…
उठा बगूला प्रेम का तिनका उड़ा आकाश
तिनका तिनका से मिला तिनका तिनके के पास.
The desire of the love rose to sky…
And the fragile and frail like straw acquired heights of sky and mingled with another straw for ever…i.e. the ordinary person, who gets indulged in true divine love acquires immense strength to meet with the beloved one…here straw metaphors with the body and sky to the soul..

Ajay Ji

Sunday 28 June 2015

Poetry written by Mami ji (Savita Goel)


लोग मिलते हैं हवाओं में, मंजिलें होती हैं अलग-अलग
फिर भी यादें रह जाती हैं, देखें न देखें काफी होती है एक झलक
कविता वो जो दिल में उतर जाए, कविता वो जो रूह को छू जाए
कविता वो जो आँखों को नम कर जाए,
सविता ने कविता लिखी है आशा करती हूँ कि आप सब को पसंद आ जाए ,
सबसे पहले मैं जीजाजी-दीदी से माफ़ी चाहूंगी  गर मेरी कविता में रिचा की खूबी का बखान छूट गया हो
कुछ दिल के भाव कुछ पलों के अनुभाव, कुछ कुछ उसका सरल स्वभाव कुछ उसका प्यारा बर्ताव
इन सबको शब्दों में पिरोने का प्रयास
वो है हमेशा हमारे पास , हर पल रहता है उसका एहसास
कि वो थी इंसान बहुत ही ख़ास
कि हवाओं में रहता है उसका आभास ,
मानते हैं बदल गया उसका निवास
पर हम सबको देखती रहती हैं, पूरा है मुझे विश्वास

            ************XXX***************

रिचा हमारी सबसे प्यारी,
बड़ी समझदार सबसे न्यारी,
चेहरा उसका सुन्दर फूल, खिले क्यारी क्यारी
घर की रौनक , उससे सजती फूलवारी ,
पहने जो भी वस्त्र, सादगी उसका जेवर,
कभी नहीं बोली ऊंचा, न दिखाए तेवर
सादगी की प्रतिभा, वो थी शालीनता की मूरत,
वो थी मेरी काजोल पाई उसके जैसी सूरत
छोटी थी पर थी वो बड़ी ज्ञानी,
आर्ट ऑफ़ लिविंग की थी वो ध्यानी
जो कोई आए भोजन खिलाए , ना सिर्फ पूछे पानी
दिल था बड़ा विशाल , वो थी बड़ी दानी
कभी न हुई मायुश , न कोई चेहरे पर शिकन
दिल था उसका जैसे पिघला हुआ मक्खन
न करी कभी उफ़ कितना हो दर्द
हिम्मत इतनी कि क्या झेलेगा कोई मर्द
मम्मी पापा की दुलारी, भी बहन की लाडली
भाभी सौम्या, भांजी धर्मिष्टा, के साथ रही जैसे सहेली
मेरे बच्चों की थी प्यारी बहन, न कभी भूली दूज न रक्षाबंधन
उसको कदर थी रिश्तों की , निभाने आते थे संबंध
हँसता हुआ चेहरा, आँखों में अनोखी चमक
उसके खिलते हुए चेहरे पर थी एक पावन दमक
कानों में झुमकी कड़ों की खनक
एक बार जो उसे देख ले, नहीं भूले एक झलक
आज वो नहीं हमारे बीच,
सोचकर दिल में गूंजती है चीख
पता नहीं उसके बिना कैसे कोई होगा ठीक
अपनी छोटी सी उम्र में हम सबको दे गई बहुत सीख


All what I am saying is from my heart.
It is difficult to stop once I start.
So all of you please bear with me,
I knew for sure she was too dear to me and thee.
34 years ago an angel was born.
In the deep blue sky, like a star shone.
She was most affectionate, loving and caring.
She was a homely child, always sharing.
Though she was the youngest, she was a leader.
She was smart, intelligent and a reader
Always doing her duties, hardworking forever.
She has taught us so much, it is up to us to remember.
How to endure pain, not to sigh or complain.
How to keep a smile on your face. how to sustain
was totally into Art of Living, did pooja, havan and meditation.
Would never miss out, whether she was at any station.
I have seen her since she was born.
There is a tear in my heart thinking that she has gone.
God give the family strength to endure the loss.
Though being the youngest she was the boss.
Always well dress would look beautiful
very elegant, simple and traditional,
undoubtedly confident Always bold not coy.
She had a million dollar smile which spelt of utmost joy.
She was very obedient, would exactly do what her mom wanted. But when it was her Dad he had to do what she dictated.
She was the darling of the Bagrodia household.
She always did the right thing without being told.
She respected values and maintain relations.
She had lot of ‘satsangs’ she was the one behind all preparations. There is so much that I can say.
There is a perpetual brainstorm of thoughts like stacks of hay.
I can see her here there and everywhere.
It seems she may just come out from anywhere.
Our families have had the most best of precious time.
Time has suddenly stopped, but memories shine.
Though we were miles apart.

There was always bonding from the heart.

poetry written by Mami ji (Savita Goel)

Monday 8 June 2015

Chapter has ended with the leaving of shambhavi


Today it feels like a " chapter coming to an end " 
A chapter of my family's journey with the art of living parts of Richa since nov 2014 that chapter has ended with the leaving of shambhavi 
living together with the art of living gang was a chapter
it closes now

Wednesday 22 April 2015

Dear bhaiya


Dear bhaiya

mom is hiring a pundit there in faridabad for 3 months. this is senseless when we have so many here. so papa has strictly told mom that we will send from here. yes u can send bhagwati ji to faridabad if you dont wnat to send yogesh ji. But janmashtmi is coming and bhagwati ji rraly celebrates very well. he does the shringar very well.

please understand. there is no point incurring extra cost in faridabad. strecthing these small matters is creating stress for papa also. alot of time and energy is going in this. this is just my observation. please dont feel i'm being rude again.

 प्रिय भैया,

 मम्मी  फरीदाबाद में 3 महीने के लिए एक पंडितजी  हायर कर रही हैं. जब हमारे यहाँ इतने सारे पंडित हैं वहां से किसी को लेने का क्या प्रयोजन है ? पापा ने मम्मी को को दृढ़ता से कहा है कि  वो यहाँ से भेजेंगे . अगर आप योगेशजी को नहीं भेजना चाहते हैं तो  आप भगवतीजी को फरीदाबाद भेज सकते हैं ...जन्माष्टमी नजदीक आ रही है और भगवतीजी कभी कभार ही अच्छे से जन्माष्टमी मना पाते हैं...वो बस श्रृंगार अच्छा करते हैं ...
प्लीज समझो, फरीदाबाद में और अधिक खर्च करने का कोई मतलब ही नहीं है..इतनी छोटी छोटी बातों के बढ़ने से पापा का तनाव बढ़ने लगता है...इसमें बहुत सारा समय और पैसा बरबाद होता है ...यह सब मैं देख रही हूँ....यह न सोचना कि मैं फिर से बुरे तरीके से पेश आ रही हूँ...